I know I have come a long way in terms of talking about myself as an artist as I can actually say the words now. Am I all the way there, hell no but I am trying every day and that is the main thing.
I have written a lot over the years about chasing perfection and how this eats away at people (myself included). I have learnt over more recent periods how to not only accept not being perfect or anywhere near but to use what you don’t know to your advantage.
I used to think “I can’t do that until I know more”. “I can’t put that out there until it looks more professional”. “I can’t breathe until I breathe more…”. You get the picture and for anyone (I know there are lots) who lives like this I urge you to say this to yourself often. Stop. Stop. Stop.
You may think this one tiny word has no benefit however used over time can be used to bring you back into the present moment. Mindfulness. It is only when you stop at these points do you give yourself a little time to realise how much you are torturing yourself and for what, for whom?I feel very blessed that I can say with honesty “I use my pain and past experiences as a tool for growth and to become me in all my glory”. I used to hide myself, really hide as I was constantly saying “I need to work on this”, “I need to sort this out”. Being diligent is great however diligence is not constantly waiting for the right time, the right moment, the perfect website. That is stupidity and falls into the mentality of “when I get more… everything will be better, sorted”. Nonsense.
One of the first comments I wrote on my first art site, my then facebook art page was “if you wait until everything is perfect you will never start”. This was a big moment for me and one which has stayed with me ever since. For me I just had to shout that voice down, feel the fear and anxiety and do it anyway. There is no other way.
The true beauty of people is their soul. What makes you sad, happy, desperate, alive? I want to know. I’ll share mine, will you share yours? As I sit and write I know that my power, my true beauty is in my innocence and my vulnerability. It feels nice and kind to see the words, to hear myself say this and most importantly to believe this. What I used to hide from the world, hide from myself I know use and show and share. I do this as my story is my power. My pain is my power. My struggles and frustrations are my power. I am my power and when I connect with myself I radiate something special to the world. Wow get me today, you go girl.
What I love about you all are the parts of you that you hide, that you are ashamed of. Real and raw are two words that I use to describe myself and these are the characteristics that are so unique to you and so beautiful. You exactly as you are is what makes you beautiful. I don’t want to know how amazing you are now, I want to know your pain and struggles and what makes you get through the day. I want to know your reality. I want to know what made you you and what keeps you you. I want to know all the parts that make you your unique self.
One of my favourite pieces of my original art is titled “Double headed beauty” (see gallery) and with this piece I include my caption “Why be one dimensional when you can be your true multidimensional self”. What makes you unique is what makes you more beautiful and I work hard every day to share more of myself with you in the hope of inspiring you to do the same.
My art is very unique. People need to see me, to hear me and get the whole experience from me. My abstract pieces are a reflection of all that is missing from the world and what I hope to grow in the world. I want to share these experiences with you so you too can connect with me, my art and consequently yourself. That is when life really begins.
I have unique ideas about my art. I have created it and only I know and understand it. I would like to invite you into my inner world so you can get to know me more. I want to share my experience with you and I want to continuously work on my confidence as an artist and promote my art to sell. It is always a work in progress for me however I believe in me so I know it will happen. If I keep following my creative path and living my creative life my work as an artist will grow. Use what fits, lose what doesn’t. I find inspiration from other artists, not necessarily other abstract artists just artists in general. I know that when I truly connect with an artist it is because I can see and feel their soul and that for me is a magical experience.
When you connect with an artist you connect with their art and vice versa as the connection is within two people, two souls and what those souls represent and radiate. I used to be scared and worried that if I sold my art I would be selling myself and this was not something I could detach from. I am now further along in my own spiritual practice and my thinking on this is very different. I want to sell my art now as they no longer belong to me. I have learnt, grown, healed and developed internally through the experience of the art creation and now it is time to set them free so you too can be set free.
With a huge smile on my face and immense pride at what just came out of my soul.
Sophie Marie x