Sharing your multidimensional self

Abstract art, Abstract art for sale, Art, Contemporary abstract art, Share yourself

I know I have come a long way in terms of talking about myself as an artist as I can actually say the words now. Am I all the way there, hell no but I am trying every day and that is the main thing.

I have written a lot over the years about chasing perfection and how this eats away at people (myself included). I have learnt over more recent periods how to not only accept not being perfect or anywhere near but to use what you don’t know to your advantage.

I used to think “I can’t do that until I know more”. “I can’t put that out there until it looks more professional”. “I can’t breathe until I breathe more…”. You get the picture and for anyone (I know there are lots) who lives like this I urge you to say this to yourself often. Stop. Stop. Stop.

You may think this one tiny word has no benefit however used over time can be used to bring you back into the present moment. Mindfulness. It is only when you stop at these points do you give yourself a little time to realise how much you are torturing yourself and for what, for whom?I feel very blessed that I can say with honesty “I use my pain and past experiences as a tool for growth and to become me in all my glory”. I used to hide myself, really hide as I was constantly saying “I need to work on this”, “I need to sort this out”. Being diligent is great however diligence is not constantly waiting for the right time, the right moment, the perfect website. That is stupidity and falls into the mentality of “when I get more… everything will be better, sorted”. Nonsense.

One of the first comments I wrote on my first art site, my then facebook art page was “if you wait until everything is perfect you will never start”. This was a big moment for me and one which has stayed with me ever since. For me I just had to shout that voice down, feel the fear and anxiety and do it anyway. There is no other way.

The true beauty of people is their soul. What makes you sad, happy, desperate, alive? I want to know. I’ll share mine, will you share yours? As I sit and write I know that my power, my true beauty is in my innocence and my vulnerability. It feels nice and kind to see the words, to hear myself say this and most importantly to believe this. What I used to hide from the world, hide from myself I know use and show and share. I do this as my story is my power. My pain is my power. My struggles and frustrations are my power. I am my power and when I connect with myself I radiate something special to the world. Wow get me today, you go girl.

What I love about you all are the parts of you that you hide, that you are ashamed of. Real and raw are two words that I use to describe myself and these are the characteristics that are so unique to you and so beautiful. You exactly as you are is what makes you beautiful. I don’t want to know how amazing you are now, I want to know your pain and struggles and what makes you get through the day. I want to know your reality. I want to know what made you you and what keeps you you. I want to know all the parts that make you your unique self.

One of my favourite pieces of my original art is titled “Double headed beauty” (see gallery) and with this piece I include my caption “Why be one dimensional when you can be your true multidimensional self”. What makes you unique is what makes you more beautiful and I work hard every day to share more of myself with you in the hope of inspiring you to do the same.

My art is very unique. People need to see me, to hear me and get the whole experience from me. My abstract pieces are a reflection of all that is missing from the world and what I hope to grow in the world. I want to share these experiences with you so you too can connect with me, my art and consequently yourself. That is when life really begins.

I have unique ideas about my art. I have created it and only I know and understand it. I would like to invite you into my inner world so you can get to know me more. I want to share my experience with you and I want to continuously work on my confidence as an artist and promote my art to sell. It is always a work in progress for me however I believe in me so I know it will happen. If I keep following my creative path and living my creative life my work as an artist will grow. Use what fits, lose what doesn’t. I find inspiration from other artists, not necessarily other abstract artists just artists in general. I know that when I truly connect with an artist it is because I can see and feel their soul and that for me is a magical experience.

When you connect with an artist you connect with their art and vice versa as the connection is within two people, two souls and what those souls represent and radiate. I used to be scared and worried that if I sold my art I would be selling myself and this was not something I could detach from. I am now further along in my own spiritual practice and my thinking on this is very different. I want to sell my art now as they no longer belong to me. I have learnt, grown, healed and developed internally through the experience of the art creation and now it is time to set them free so you too can be set free.

With a huge smile on my face and immense pride at what just came out of my soul.

Immense love

Sophie Marie x


Connecting deeper to your core

Belief, Hope, Inspire, Minimalism, Self love, Share the love, Uncategorized

As I looked back to see how long it has been since my last post, I realised that I still had a draft post which I had forgotten to publish. I think I was waiting for a photo and then forgot in the midst of life at the moment. Forget the photo for now I have just sent it out.

I have been thinking about how I have not been writing for quite a while. To be honest, with the challenges I have going on at the moment I have been focusing on these and as such I have felt a bit stuck about posting however much I wanted to. I have felt a barrier which I have not liked but have accepted. The positive is that I have been working really hard on these current life challenges, I am no longer prepared to be silent or to keep my voice hidden, me hidden as I do not deserve to hide. I truly believe that all of this is happening for a reason and that I need to face and come to terms with how life was previously before I chose me and my freedom. I let out a deeper breath. I know there is work to be done here and it will come out when it is ready.

A friend of mine had to cancel coffee and catch up this morning, I was disappointed as this was something for me, time away from everything that I had given to myself and was looking forward to. I am still doing what I would have done and just had a nice stroll through the park just reflecting on life, nature and myself and I am treating myself to a coffee whilst I write. With funds as they are at the moment coffee is a big luxury however one coffee will be ok as I need and deserve this time for me, to reflect, to offload, to come to terms with things, to release. I need to be with myself today and love myself more.

I am really happy that I am still meditating every single night before bed and have also increased to sometimes during the day as well. I truly love meditation and how it makes me feel. It really is something that you build on and learn to build into your life with other kinds of self care and I know it is something that I would like to expand on in many ways. It is a way of keeping a protective barrier around you, it enables you to go deeper within yourself and almost like digging really deep within yourself and giving yourself a big hug. That is how I describe it anyway. I guess for me it connects to feeling closer to God and I am learning more every day what I think that means for me. I feel that this feeling of being closer to God and more protected going through struggles and challenges is me being closer to myself. When I used to hear in church about God being in you I never could connect with that concept however more recently I have felt more connection. I feel God is around/in me and I am around/in God as God for me is a higher, deeper state of being and I know that I have reached this deeper state of being lately. I have connected even deeper to myself and I have found that as this has happened I have felt so much less isolated.

I feel that the isolation I have felt is an isolation from some parts of myself and because I have still not got deep enough in myself and with myself. I do feel connected to myself and thankfully have done for a while however I now feel a deeper connection as I know I am connecting and getting in touch even more with my true being, my true self and this is where the isolation dissipates. I am feeling what I want more and more and what I feel I would like to be doing in my life at the moment, what is calling to me at my core.

I have been putting out a few more of our personal items around our home and this has felt so good. It has been lovely and so exciting to see items that have been packed away put out on display and looking at our home as a whole with all the aspects of it. I really love our home and all of the work that I am doing in it. I saved a shelf from a vintage bookcase that I bought a while ago as the shelf itself is stunning. It is very plain however the colour of it will look beautiful against the dark purple walls and I am going to look in a while for some brackets to hold the shelf up. I have the idea in my mind and I would like to try and get that designed this weekend if not today. I have an industrial hanging light, very subdued on the wall in my living room alcove and my idea now is to put the shelf near this light and display some other items of ours on this area. I get creative ideas for items that I may have saved a long time ago or that had previously been used elsewhere and I can then visualise giving them a new life in a different place. This excites me greatly, this is when I can connect with my deeper self, my truest self as I feel like a kid in a sweet shop after having eaten all of the sweets also. I love the feeling.

I feel at home writing and I feel very blessed that I am able to write and also that I dare to write. I do not filter what I am writing as I want it to be just as it is when it comes out of me, real and raw as nothing else really fits with me or feels right. It is not about trying to sound good or intelligent or anything, it is simply me taking out what is in my brain and putting it on down on paper or as in right now on a laptop. I know I should be writing more and not stopping when life gets tough however I am still learning as we all are so I am not going to beat myself up about that. I have made some huge steps over the last month and ones which I am truly proud of however in all honestly despite me saying this it also fills me with anxiety literally as I write about it as I do know that I have not processed all of this yet. As I say this I realise that this is probably what is causing my anxiety, I know there is a lot to reflect on and accept and process and then in time feel, grieve for and then let go and this will also take me to another level.

I have been getting rid of more things in the house, trying to sell a few bits and donating others to charity which helps others as well as myself as I do connect more with an organised, minimal space. For me organised is not about control, it is about making life easier for myself having a space for things and knowing where things are, only being surrounded by what I need and or love and also about respect. Respect for our items in so far as being able to see them, really see them and treasuring them as I do. It is about my self worth also. It is like the tidy house tidy mind attitude however I believe also for me that it is tidy mind tidy house. When I am feeling connected with myself I like our home to look more organised, it is easier, easier to keep tidy, easier to clean, just easier and calm and with it all being decorated and designed to my personality, it just feels right and natural and free. I feel free.

I am really happy to be writing, I love how I can just type literally what comes up in my brain and in doing so release me as well as connect me. I would like to write more in different ways and I hope to be able to fulfil this for myself. It all comes from me and it all comes from you. Only we can do it and we have to do it not only for ourselves but for others, to help show them the way, to encourage, to inspire, to pass on. We must always pass on as you never know when you need someone to pass on to you. Lets make life better for everyone, share what you know and others will do the same. We all benefit from other people, others ideas, others skills and experience and others love.

Share the love always

Sophie Marie xx