All good writers must read and write a lot

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Hi all and happy new year. I hope your Christmas time was as relaxed and peaceful as it could be. It sort of saddens me to say that this is my first piece of writing in quite a long time. I am hopeful that will change this year. Although I am partial to a great quote, I do not tend to use other people’s quotes in my writing. This quote is particularly relevant to me and one which has carried me through the last six months or so. “If you want to be a writer, you must do two things above all others: read a lot and write a lot”. Stephen King.

I came across this particular quote whilst researching how to write a book and how to become a good writer. It really stopped me in my tracks and shocked me, in a good way. It may sound strange that I had never really thought of the reading part. The only books I read as an adult were self development books, autobiographies, literature based on mental health. The only other things that I read were interior design magazines and still do. I can spend long periods of time immersed in a page with only images to entertain me. This for me, is where I can read the story without words and this excites me. I can see the passion, the art and the style within the confines of another’s living room. Carefully curated to show the inner workings of a stylists mind. A hot bath and numerous images of mid century furniture and I am away for hours.

Like everything else in my life,I don’t just want to be a writer I want to be a good writer. Writing itself for me is still quite new in terms of writing for others as well as myself. I want to learn how to grow in this area, grammar being one area that I need to focus on. Somehow I have forgotten a lot that I learnt in school and I would like to learn how best to set out my writing, ensuring that I keep my writing brief and relevant (I am known for going around the houses so may struggle here). I want to be myself. Raw in my writing, with a more professional edge.

My business has been going the same way this last year. I had reached the stage whereby I wanted to look at areas that I could tighten up, become more streamlined and all together be more professional. I know that my work as a counsellor in my own practice is work to a high standard however there are some areas of my business that I always try and improve upon each year. I can see from my previous year in business what I need to look at and how I can market myself in a more professional manner in order to grow personally, professionally and my client base itself. Reaching a level of maturity for my business naturally flows into other areas of my life and what I want to achieve. The last year I focused a lot more of my time on my counselling business and growing this. I put the work in and saw the results. This year I would like to invest more in myself personally, allowing myself lots of time to write. I know that in order for this to happen, knowing my personality as I do is to dedicate time to it. I need to allocate time and organise my time more effectively. I have unconsciously placed writing as less important. I want this to change. I know the benefits personally for me when I write. I am more open, my confidence increases, I am more alert and most important it allow me to share myself creatively.

I love my work, however because of this I tend to trick myself that it is not work. It is. This couldn’t be further from the truth. Being a counsellor is not something that you put a hat on for. It is someone that I am every day, a big part of my being. I am however not just a counsellor. I am multi faceted and like my art piece “Two headed beauty” (available through my website) says “why be one dimensional when you can be your true, multi dimensional self”. By neglecting this part of me, I have been neglecting myself. I am now aware and so I can change. Creativity releases me and makes me feel free and more alive. It brings me back to the now.

You can gauge when you are following a positive path when the feelings that arise within you feel ‘right’. It is that feeling which is hard to put into words. It is like a kind of magic. It just creates a feeling of peace (and many other feelings) deep inside. It is like a piece of a jigsaw puzzle. It just fits. I need to write more. I need to set myself a goal, a schedule that I can achieve. I want to write with progression as I have to be continuously learning and growing. I can not stagnate.

I always want to write raw and in the moment which I have. The difference today is that I have gone through the piece and edited it. I don’t know what if any difference this will make to how it is read. This is a learning curve for me and I am enjoying it. Please look out for my next piece where I will be talking more about how reading has become a big part of my life and how I hope this will enhance my writing.

Looking forward to sharing more with you

Sophie Marie

The Power of Meditation

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My connection with meditation started a few years ago with meditation drop in sessions at the Buddhist centre. The voice and words of the Buddhist monk hypnotized me in a way that stuck with me and even though I did not keep a regular routine I never forgot the feeling.

About a year ago (or was it two) I was lucky enough to attend a meditation course as part of a support package that I received through a domestic abuse charity. It was one of the most powerful experiences, a feeling of true connectedness, real honest engagement and a collective feeling and embodiment of hope.

On one occassion whilst in the middle of a mindful yoga practice, I had a huge awakening. We were told to do as little or as much as we were able to do of the moves, to work with our own body. This one moment I felt different, emotional, different feelings ran through me and I couldn’t stop them.

I consciously limited my movement to what was comfortable and did not push myself as I always would. This was a strange feeling for me however it felt good, kind and loving to myself. It was at this pinnacle moment that my life changed for the better. I had finally got to the point where my mind (not my body) said “no more”. No more pushing myself too hard, doing more and more. It was in this moment that I realised how hard I had been on myself all my life, how much I pushed myself and I hadn’t realised quite how much until that moment. It was very emotional for me and I shared the emotion and the impact with the others in my group. They were all so supportive and I felt very safe. Safe to be in the room and more importantly safe to be myself.

A big down period followed which was the hardest drop I had experienced or so it felt. It was at this time that I started to grieve. I was grieving for what I had failed to give to myself, the lack of self love, the lack of understanding, the lack of compassion, the lack of respect. I was grieving myself. It wasn’t the first time that I had grieved over myself so I was aware of the experience. I remember at that time saying that I felt like I had been running with lots and lots of horses and I was always up top with the other horses following me behind and then all of a sudden the horse at the top (me) came to a halt, a stumble almost and then a stop and then everyone or as it felt at the time everything came crashing down on top of me. It was no wonder I felt so down and for a long period of time, it was a huge load that had come crashing down into me.

Fast forward to my life now and back to meditation. I am going through quite a challenging time at the moment however I have still been meditating every night and it is still having a massive effect on me. It is not a long meditation, sometimes ten minutes sometimes a little longer however the time period is irrelevant. It is the fact that I am giving myself that time, that self love, showing myself that level of self respect and what it does is almost like having a protective bubble around you. It is a healthy, safe protection with good energy and it radiates from me. The difficult things still touch me however they sort of bounce off rather than filter. The negativity from external sources can not penetrate and with every ping back comes an increase in confidence and energy and light.

There is a feeling, deep within me and that feeling is one of peace and love and happiness. I am at one with God, the world, people, myself, everything. It is a feeling of deep, true connectedness and it feels truly amazing. I said to myself today as I was walking home in the cold, crisp air “you know you are truly, truly happy when you are going through really challenging times yet you still feel and know you are the luckiest person in the world and blessed”. This feeling is priceless. I am always truly blessed.

I feel blessed to be here, to be writing to you, to be feeling and seeing and loving. I am free.

With much love and true blessings

Sophie Marie xxx