I wish the world would stop

Be thankful, Belief, Faith, Growth, Hope, Inner core, Inspire, Poetry, Uncategorized, writing

I wish the world would stop
Just for a while,
So that I can sit
And turn down the dial.
Someone pressed the pause button
And gave us all a chance,
To slow down, to reflect
Instead of walking in a trance.
The less you have
The more you can see,
Just how much you could be.
What keeps you grounded?
What makes you free?
Imagine you are a strong rooted tree.
Look closely within
The answers are clear,
The quiet is a gift
So that you can hear.
Your core is a calling
It wants you near,
The peace you need
Is right here.
Come closer
You too,
And remember
I am here for you.

Manifesting what you want in life and trusting the universe

Belief, Connect, Connecting, Embrace true self, Faith, Free, Freedom, God, Growth, Helping others, Hope, Inspire, Learning, Life, Light, Living at depth, Meditation, Share the love, Share yourself, Soul, Spirituality, Trusting the universe, universe alignment

It has been way too long since I wrote. I am not going to beat myself up for it, it is what it is and I am here now. As I allow things to just be and embrace them for what they are and the timing of events I can keep faith that what I need will come to me when the time is ready. That said, on occasion I realise, as I did recently that if there are particular areas of my life that are not growing it is up to me to look into this. I have often wondered why I was only achieving a certain number of clients in my business and why this was. It was then that I realised I had a blockage.

Money for me has a negative connotation attached to it. My experience of money was that it was used to control and to buy my attention amongst other things. I lived a previous life of being ‘bought’. The presents all being a way of feeding anothers ego rather than coming from a place of love. I learnt the hard way, maybe the only way, that people who are genuinely being themselves do not have to ‘prove’ anything. They just are. Actions speak louder than words. I want people to show me they care and love me. Words are cheap.

Back to the money. Due to my negative experiences that I had attached in some ways to money, I was stuck in an unconscious cycle of money is bad. Money is greed. Money is control. The reality of this is that yes, sometimes it can be; however it is not a given. It is like saying all men/women are bad because we have had bad experiences with them. We get stuck in our own story that we tell ourselves and believe it to be fact. Anything that stems from a negative experience will never be fact or rational as we are coming from a place of high emotion. We are stuck in that experience, in that time. Only when we realise this can we start to question our own story, our own reality of a situation or in my case of a word. We can then free ourselves and make our own healthy narrative.

Since I became aware of my financial blockage I have been working on releasing this through meditation focusing on this area. I am reflecting why I have this block and the emotions connected to it. I can then work on manifesting financial freedom and abundance through meditation and unblocking my energy chakras. Since I have been putting my focus and positive energy into this I have five new clients.

I am aware that if you are reading this you may be thinking “what a load of rubbish”. I am not naive, I would have said the same thing years ago. What I want to point out is that I am not saying you can become unstuck and gain more financial freedom just by thinking about it and visualising it. This would be a very naive way of thinking. Life is not just going to hand you things on a silver platter whilst you sit on your backside wishing life to be different. I think this can sometimes be the misconception for people hearing and learning about working with the universe. Like anything in life, you can not just wish for a great job and get one without you having to do anything. It is about how you live your life. Life is about putting in the work, working on yourself, learning, learning from the mistakes. Life is not passive however life is twofold. If you are working on becoming a better version of yourself, being more aware, putting yourself out there, applying for jobs i.e. , improving in the meantime, growing your skill level that is the first step. The next step and probably the hardest for most people is faith. I don’t necessarily mean faith in god unless this is what you believe. I mean faith in whatever that means for you. Faith in yourself. Faith in others. Faith in the universe. Faith and patience. You may think and I often think the same, that you have put in all this work, done everything that you can think of to achieve what you want and nothing is happening. You don’t yet have this ‘job’ or ‘relationship’. The universe is not trying to torture you, it is teaching you. It is working for you even if you can not see it. I am experiencing this at the moment. I know how much I am doing everyday to work on myself and how I feel I am ‘ready’ for a relationship, I have to trust and have faith that if I do not have it yet the universe still has lessons for me to learn, other areas that I need to grow in, other things I need to achieve for ‘me’ before this happens. I have to be patient, well try at least with faith that what I ‘need’ will come when it is ready. It is not about what I want, it is about what I need.

Feels really good to be back writing. Tapping back into myself and what makes me me. It helps me open myself up more, to myself and in turn to others and to the universe. I will try and catch up with more writing that I want to talk about. Off to meditate now, feels like the natural progression to this blog. Thank you for letting me connect with you all and in turn to myself. I need this. I need to write. I feel more connected. I feel love. I feel all of you.

With much love and connection

Sophie Marie

The Beauty of Light

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The Beauty of Light .. A short piece I wrote for the Festival of Light 

All around the world is light. A vast expanse of light, so powerful that you don’t even realise it is there. It is only in times of darkness, sorrow or loneliness that we begin to pray. We pray for change, for hope, for comfort, for the darkness to end. It is only through connecting with our own darkness that we learn about the beauty of light. 

We wish for a light at the end of the tunnel, a light to guide our way. A light of hope to help us through the day. We may think we are not good enough, not clever enough or that we are different and don’t fit in. It is these thoughts that keep us locked in the darkness, scared to come out. Hiding from the world, hiding from ourselves.

Looking deep within feels impossible and we are blinded, motionless. We see the darkness as something negative, something we need to run from. It is only when we connect with our darkness that we learn to truly connect with ourselves and when we connect with ourselves we connect to life, to people, to nature. It is like a light being switched on. The beauty of a warm, comforting flame beckoning us. Only the light that we have switched on has not come from an outside source. This light is natural, pure, honest and alive. It is the light that we all have deep within us, deep within our soul. It is our light and there is nothing more beautiful than our own light. Our light that helps us to be seen, it lights up who we are. When we see the light in other people shining brightly it helps us to search for our own light.

Do not be afraid to sit in the dark, the darkness welcomes you. You are surrounded by peace, knowing that the light is always there when you need it, when you are ready. Your light will never leave you, you just have to remember to switch it on. 

Light is life.

Light creates more light.

You are your light.

Light up yourself and you Light up the world.

Sophie Marie x

Good Karma

Be thankful, Belief, Faith, Freedom, Good karma, Growth, Helping, Helping others, Hope, Inspire, Kindness, Learning, Letting go, Pass it on, Self love, Share the love, Share yourself, Small steps, Spirituality, writing

Hi, how are you all. I have finally got my laptop fixed and so I am back writing after a while. Unfortunately I am not one of those people that can happily type away on a mobile. I am old school and I have to feel the touch of the keyboard, it is how I write and how I can maintain my flow. It feels good already. I always feel even closer to myself when I write and there is no better feeling. There is so much that I want to write about however rather than overwhelm myself I will practice what I preach and take it one step at a time, one blog at a time.

I want this first piece to be about karma however not the negative kind. Good karma and I would like to talk about how life and the universe is coming together with me and revealing itself. There is a lot to discuss so bear with me as I do like to go around the houses to tell a story. Hey, its what makes me me and I am good with it. There is a faith that I believe is missing with lots of people, I used to be one of them. Now when I say I used to be one of them, I mean I was always positive however at times of extreme difficulty I have not always possessed the ability to just simply have faith and believe that everything will turn out ok, turn out as it is supposed to. Until this year. Life really changed forever. I know I have experienced that many times, many different periods of growth, changes and increases of confidence and self esteem. This is different. This is real, genuine and certainly life changing and something so important that I want to share with you all.

I have written about this a couple of times however I know this will be something that will keep coming in to my blogs as it is so profound and so intrinsically part of my life now, part of me. This is spirituality, being at one with the world, with nature, with the universe rather than feeling like you are separate, alone and disconnected. Now I am no way a master on this, I know what I know based on my own experience of it and how I feel the world around me. I understand more now since I was drawn to reading and through my spiritual reading across different areas which also is an instrinsic part of who I am. Reading now also makes me feel more alive, more connected. I will keep doing what I am doing until I no longer enjoy it. I do not believe that you have to always keep at something just because you started it. Some things like some people are meant to come into your life for a period of time, everything does not and will not be forever and now I can happily say that I am at peace with this. I am sure in some areas this may not come as easy for me however I will take what I already know and feel and apply it to these other areas. I do not have to know everything and I do not need to know how things will turn out, if they will work out. I feel happy now to just do what I want, when I want with who I want. I don’t mean without a care in the world attitude, just having the freedom to be me in whatever way that is in the moment and being ok with that. I reiterate that I am no master of any of these and I do not have to be. Noone is a true master at anything, like no one is perfect. There will always be more to learn, more growth, more things to experience. You and I are ever evolving so we will never be a finished product. Why would we want to be? How boring would that be? To know everything already and have nothing left to learn. This is what I would equate to being a robot and I am not a robot.

I just realised that I have been writing away and I have not even mentioned good karma yet and that is ok. Writing, like life does not always go from one to 100 in a straight line, I may go up and down, to the side, high up then a few down or in whichever combination. It is what it is and I am what I am. I will get to it but for now I just want to write, to release, to speak and hopefully be heard. That is a new admission for me which I feel I need to stop at. This is where I would say (in my counselling work) “that sounds huge”. I feel it is. I am always listening. I like to talk when I feel comfortable to talk and with my friends this is easy however I still need to say outloud sometimes, anytime “I want to be heard”. “I want to be listened to and I want to be heard”. I have definitely got better in this area and will not just be quiet if a friend starts to talk when I am, I will assert myself and speak a bit louder. I used to get mad at conversations of this nature and with some people I have found it impossible. People are so wrapped up in themselves that they want to be listened to and they are however they do not then pass that back as mutual respect. I have started to think to myself after one of these conversations that I would love to say “it would be nice if you would now ask about me, what I am up to etc” This is really honest by me and in all of my years I have never said this outloud although I am accepting in myself that this is what I am feeling and thinking. If you have a conversation with someone in the street, at home, wherever and the other person gives you respect and time and space to talk a while and be listened to, please stop and think for a moment. Do not take advantage. Offer the same back. Ask them about themselves. They, I, may be a great listener but I would also like to be listened to. It is not about saying well Im not very good at listening, I think that’s a cop out. It is about the simple act of making someone else feel valid. We all want to feel validated by other people, it is innate.

If you feel like you have got something from someone, whether that be a simple but effective smile, a nice comment, a listening ear, someone asking you how you are or about your day please pass it on. If you feel like you received something, give something back. This is so valid across life in general. It is not our life, just for us as some people still think. We are all part of life. We are life and as such we need to look after it, to look after each other. Be there for one another. Now I guess I should talk about good karma or else I will have to change the title of this blog.

Since having the deep, inner belief that everything will work out and to let go and just allow life to be, the universe is really working with me. I went to Northumberland for half term and upon landing at Bardon Mill by train I realised that we were not in the right place I felt perhaps all my bus/train research had got a bit muddled. I needed to get to our YHA. There was a pub and nothing else. I went in to enquire and found out that to walk to the YHA would be a minimum of one hour, uphill and with a heavy rucksack, suitcase and my ten year old daughter in tow was a no no. After a lot of conversations with the lovely staff at the pub and another lady who said she would have driven us had she not been drinking already, one of the ladies working in the pub got her car and drove us to our hostel. From the moment I entered, I felt looked after and not alone. I had faith that we would get there and help came to hand. Whilst on the same trip, I was let off with money that I was short for the train and a free bus trip (the crazy AD122 bus journey,lets not go there). It was then that I felt more connected, not alone. I know for people it is really hard to believe that things will be ok, especially if they haven’t been for so long but trust me they will. Constantly hoping and praying it will be ok does not quite work the same. You have to learn to, as they say “let go and trust the process”. This is so true not just in counselling but in life. Once you surrender to what is and what will be, things seem to emerge in different ways. It is like the quote (sorry I don’t know the author of the quote) “when the student is ready, the teacher will appear”. So true. When you experience it for yourself you can say “I get it”. It all makes sense, it all slots together, naturally, organically the way it is supposed to.

I left my purse at home the other week and was stuck needing petrol to get me back home. No phone, no id, nothing. Whilst in the bank explaining my situation, hoping they would give me money without id, a lady came up to me and said “if they can’t give it to you, I will give you the money to get home”. I was really touched, she had heard my story. She heard me. Very powerful.

Thank you for all the people who think and feel that way and may they be a teacher to others who may not naturally be that way. We can all learn from each other. We just have to listen…..

With much love and hope

Sophie Marie xx

Helping others

Art, Belief, domestic abuse, Expressions of art, Faith, Growth, Helping, Helping others, Hope, Inspirational cycle, Inspire, Kindness, Nature, Reconnecting, Share yourself, support, writing

Hi all, it’s good to be here. I hope you are all keeping well and if you are currently being challenged as I am then I hope you have some support to keep you on your path.

I think I have a previous post about this however my desire to help people just keeps growing stronger. I support children, teenagers and adults in my work as a mental health counsellor which I love. This is a different kind of desire. This comes from deep down, deep within my soul. When I am going through challenges in my life, my opportunity for growth, this is when the desire burns stronger. I spoke to a lovely friend of mine the other day about my ideas for helping support more people. When I told her some of my ideas she said how kind and selfless they were. I know this was a compliment, however I actually disagree slightly in that on some level I feel that helping in these extra ways will help me also and so can not be purely selfless. I guess the difference now is that I am not trying to make myself ‘feel better’. I just empathise with people and their challenges, especially when those challenges leave you feeling isolated. This is a feeling I have had many times and I know how hard it is. I also now know that reaching out to others is a way of connecting. There is a deeper will to want people to know that by offering what you can, a simple message of encouragement or small token that ‘you are not alone’.

To feel this compassion from people is a feeling that can not be replicated. At Christmas time, my daughter and I were invited to an event held by Harv (domestic abuse charity) where we were shown all the donations that people had left for Christmas presents. It was very emotional for me as it was a very powerful message that people who had never met you wanted you to know that they care, you are in their thoughts and to remind you that you are not alone. There is no greater feeling.

The truth is, no one is alone. We are all connected to one another, to nature, to our universe. We either do not realise this yet or we have become detached, disconnected. The good news is that we can all connect again. Disconnection is temporary and in a way not even real. It is more of a perceived feeling as we can never truly be disconnected to who we are at our core and if we keep that with us always this will always keep us going. I feel the need to reiterate this as it is a very powerful statement. “We can never be disconnected from our core. If we keep that with us always, this will always keep us going”. I love this.

I can feel the flow more now in my words. Sometimes it takes time for the flow, sometimes it comes immediately. I just remember that it comes when it is ready, when I settle into myself and into my thoughts. When I am in the moment, in the here and now and being mindful. I can only be me now.

I just remembered what I started my post about and that was helping others. I am reading a book I got from a charity book shop in Hexham about compassion and it really is helping me cement my desire to help in a bigger way than I currently am. I know there is something a lot bigger in me and the ideas and thoughts are all coming to the forefront. I need to collect all of my ideas and put them together in the best way to showcase empathy, compassion and a willingness to support. I know I will use my art within this as art has got me to where I am now. Art was a huge influence for me. Art helped me to connect to my feelings and to reconnect with myself. Art helped save my life and I owe a lot to the arts.

I am going to put together an inspiration board to collate my ideas and thoughts and see how I can best put forward my plan. I want to show what can be done in your local community, how every little helps and how if we all share a bit of ourselves then we can all make this a better world for us all.

With hope and healing

Sophie Marie xx