Today was the first session of a ten week free course that I had signed up for a few weeks ago. I had always pondered whether this was to be of benefit to me however added my name just in case. This morning as I thought hard about whether to attend, the overwhelming feeling that kept coming across me was that this was not for me. It was a familiar feeling and it was connected to the past.
I looked at this as not a step forward but a step back and I wondered why I would even consider going down that road. When emotions and life challenges are at a high I have a tendency to go a million percent down one path. This may be the right thing to do at the time however that does not mean it is the right path overall. I have realised that sometimes I have to revisit a path but I don’t have to stay on it. I am accepting more the paths that are temporary and serve a purpose in that moment. These paths are there for a reason, to teach me and to help me grow. I also believe that they are a test. God has been testing me a lot this week.
I want to continue supporting people along their journey and inspiring people to be their true self. The difference now is that I want to do this from where I am now. I recognise what is no longer going to serve me and which paths are already set. I do not wish to travel either of these. I want to continue on my creative path and I hope to inspire people through my own expressions of art. My writing, art and interiors. I have to connect with more people that think like I do and dream as I do. I want to be inspired by people who are living their creative life and do not apologise for it.
I realise that my latest level of awakening has embedded. The feelings of unease are no longer a part of me. I am very much aware that I have changed, I have evolved more. It is tangible within me. I can feel it very strongly. It is natural. It is me but more advanced. It feels amazing and I am as always blessed.
Sending my blessings to you all
Sophie Marie x